Meh

I've had a very disappointing week. I can safely say that I'm really unhappy right now, and it sucks. It's just been a big mess of plans falling through, me ending up staying home alone (because I apparently lack social skills and can't make friends to save my life but can quickly lose them!), and while staying home alone I start to over-think and start to hate myself and it's just a mess. Not to mention I wasn't able to go to the county fair and I've been looking forward to it since last summer when I missed it. That's the first thing that set off my bad week. I've also worked like crazy, and I've been exhausted every night. I'm broke, and I thought I was going to go visit Boston but I can't afford to get up there, so that's another disappointment. I just find myself feeling so incredibly lonely and bored. I haven't done anything fun this summer. And not to mention I'm missing one of my friend's graduation party, the only one I was invited to, because my mom didn't want to come home. It sucks. I'm the one who goes to work and maintains a life, and she just goes out and parties. I don't get it. Back to school at work sucks, and it's been raining endlessly. I don't think this is going to end up being a good summer at all. One highlight of my week was having peach Sprite for the first time, that's pretty awesome. And I hung out with my friend Kelly (whose party I'm missing </3) and that was good. That was before everything got ultra shitty. Not to mention, since I've been bored, I've been consolidating all of my journals into one book, and reading all my old journals just makes me hate myself even further. It's a weird cycle. 

I need to start using my DSLR again (even though I've had nothing interesting to take pictures of). Until then, enjoy the visuals of my life via Instagram shots.

I hope the next thing I write about isn't half as whiny and depressing as this entry was.